House of Cards Reprise (The NeverEnding Story)

I didn’t go to bed until 5:30 Sunday night.

The duck wasn’t busy, so I stayed until close, getting wasted enough to forget a particular episode from earlier in the weekend.  I was also trying to rid myself of the feelings that I not only hate to admit I have, but that I hate to admit I have no control over.  In my extreme state of intoxication, I decided to build a house of cards out of drink coasters.  My mind was convinced that I could make it work if I just tried hard enough.

Unfortunately, it kept falling apart.

“It’s a metaphor for my life,” I told him.  “I can’t make anything work.”

He picked up a stack of coasters and began building.  In moments, he had engineered a flawless structure.  “You’re just doing it wrong,” he told me.

I kept reminding myself of Berg’s claim: The more cards placed on a tower the stronger it becomes, because the weight of the cards pushing down on the base (increasing friction) allows occasional cards to stumble without the entire structure collapsing.

Still each time that I created a strong base and reenforced the walls, my house failed.  The more attempts I made at creation, the heavier the failure felt on my chest.  Each time I was left with nothing.

Considering the way this nothing consumed me, I began silently comparing my life to The NeverEnding Story.  Everything is a fantasy.  The Nothing is coming.  I can’t be like Artax in the swamp; I need to stop letting myself sink.  I need an Auryn.  Maybe if I keep imagining, if I keep wishing, then my dreams will become reality.  And I will have many amazing adventures.

And perhaps one day I will build a house strong enough to remain standing.

5 Responses to “House of Cards Reprise (The NeverEnding Story)”

  1. Justin Tiemeyer Says:

    but that’s another story for another time…

    (if you haven’t read the book neverending story you probably won’t get this joke)

  2. Ashleigh Says:

    I haven’t read it… They don’t use that line in the movie?? In any case, I know I neeeeeed to read it.

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