March 25th, 2004 (Entry # 7 & Something I Realized)

(Entry # 6)

(In black ballpoint pen, cursive handwriting:)

03.25.2004

Kevin said “What if you go to New York and find the love of your life?”  Why did he say that?  No reason, no reason.  Without reason.  That’s why I’ll be moving there.  But it’s too late, the wheels are turning and I need to start again.  I’ve learned here.  I need a more drastic change.  I need someone to know me.  Alone alone alone.
“And I wish you all the love in the world, but most of all, I wish it from myself.”

“Hate is baggage,” Justin said.

“I love that movie,” I told him.  “American History X.”

Recently I realized that love is more powerful than hate, and that it feels so much better to love.  Hate is wasteful, love is redeeming.

I’m done with hate.  My arms are too weak to carry it, and life is too short to be consumed by it.

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